this past friday marked baby lo's 3 months of living and breathing earth side; and i am so overwhelmed with love for this small human that it is impossible to find words to describe what my heart feels.
it wasn't too long ago that the mere idea of having a child was the last thing i could imagine, and my, how things have changed. and now, i so completely understand what other parents say when they say no words could possibly explain the level of love they feel for their child.
i used to be quite confident in my ability to not take life too seriously or spend too much time worrying about things i have no control over, and with regards to the life part, i think i'm still pretty laid back, but the worrying about things i have no control over.. i seem to have made a complete 180. if i could keep loïc in a bubble and yet still allow him to experience life as though he weren't in said bubble, i would be so much more relaxed. :D gahhh who am i becoming... actually, forget becoming, who have i become.
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let me just take a moment and tell you how absolutely perfect this little boy is. he fills me with so much happiness and love, it's so incredibly hard to contain. he has the most precious face. the most perfect cheeks and the most kissable lips and button nose. i'm forever kissing any part of him i can get my hands on.
and he's such a happy baby. he's forever smiling. he chats like it's no one's business. he kisses back and when he's tired, he curls into me and soothes himself with my kisses. he's quiet and oh so thoughtful. he always looks as though he's taking everything and everyone in.
i'm forever asking jp what it is we could have done to deserve such a wonderful little boy. i could do this mom thing forever and always. to experience this whole thing again would be such a dream and yet, i can't imagine loving another child the same way i do baby lo. although, i say that and i don't believe it for a second. a child is so precious and so vulnerable in their early days, and i don't doubt for a second i could love another child with just as much love.
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